Hi, I’m Anxious
I won’t sugar coat this and I’m not looking for “aww’s” or sympathy … I swear. I’ll smack you if I hear an, “aww.” But since as long as I can remember I’ve been dealing with pretty bad anxiety. It’s not constant, but when it shows its ugly fucking face, it’s just the worst. That is the only way I can describe it.
Seriously, I see “aww’s” about to come out of your mouth, and I swear I will smack you.
I’m sharing this with you because I am currently infuriated by an article about Kourtney Kardashian (I know, I know … but I have a point AND she is clearly the best Kardashian, right?) and how she is dealing with her anxiety issues. Apparently, her working out and taking scantily clad selfies showing off her smokin’ bod, “may not be portraying the healthiest message to her fans and followers.”
There are a lot of awful symptoms that come along with anxiety and everyone deals with them differently. Sometimes I feel like I have an elephant sitting on my chest. Other times I have this insane urge to run for my bedroom as fast as I can and hide under the covers forever. How do I deal with all that? Well … sometimes, not always, like the other night when I was feeling exceptionally anxious, I ate shoe string fries in my pajamas while talking with my mother. While that isn’t my only solution for my anxiety, it sure was soothing (and delicious).
But another side effect is lack of appetite (this is not a problem I have, I luckily gorge myself on carbs), which Kourtney admitted that she had been dealing with, but is fully focused on staying healthy. So tell me how her throwing herself into her fitness and health and showing off her hot bod is “portraying an unhealthy image” for her fans?
For anyone who deals with anxiety (which, it’s more than you think), no one would wish this shit on their worst enemy. So I highly doubt she’s like, “hey kids, start stressing yourself out and getting real nervous to the point where you want to cry every other second and not eat anything ever, and you TOO can have a hawt body like me!” I mean … come now.
Whether you deal with your anxiety issues with medicine, working out, coloring, or eating delicious french fries whilst in your pajamas, like yours truly … at the end of the day it’s no ones damn business but your own. Know that.
But in the same breath, be healthy about it. Who knows if what Kourtney is saying is complete and utter hogwash. Quite frankly it doesn’t matter. What matters is she is bringing a very important topic to the table by allowing anxiety sufferers to be open about their issues … and I think that is an awesome thing. Because sometimes it’s hard and doesn’t feel right to tell the ones around you what’s really happening inside.
I will salute Kourtney Kardashian for making it okay to talk about the so-called,“elephant on my chest,” because sometimes just talking about it helps. So be proud of the things you’ve found to soothe your anxiety. Kourtney has her fitness. I have my shoe string french fries (did I mention I was dipping them in spicy hot mustard … because I was and it was glorious).
*From one anxiety sufferer to another, feel free to privately share your story with me or how you treat your moments of anxiety.